Wednesday, 31 July 2013

Another?

Dear sixteen year old me...
Hey there buddy, check you out with all your friends and parties and stuff! Being sixteen is good for you, you wear it well. Don't get too comfortable though, the next few years are gonna be challenging, but don't worry, we get through it. You have so many friends at 16, but you'll realise it's precious few who still remain in your life and you still care about you so much that are worth more than all those friends ten times over.
I wish I could tell you that everything is going to be exactly how you imagine it but it's not. You're gonna face some tough shit over the next few years babe and you're gonna feel like it'll never get better and it's gonna be unlike anything you have ever experienced in your life, it'll feel like it will never end. It does. I am so proud of you. You have shown strength and courage that I never imagined I would be able to feel and I am so proud to be able to say that I am you. I'm that girl. The next three years involve a lot of great memories for you, look forward to it, enjoy them. You deserve it, even if at times you feel like you don't deserve anything.
You'll be asked by your friend to go to a football game, accept. Go to that game if it kills you. I promise you will not regret it.
I guess a bit about how you're doing right now would be nice. So, I'm writing to you from being nineteen, twenty this September (scary huh?). You're happy. Mum and Dad are doing fine, so are the boys and your sister. Yes, just the boys and your sister. So enjoy your next few years and don't worry, you're going to be just fine.
Take care sweet and if you ever feel low just remember that you reach 19, you're happy and you're loved. That's all that matters.

f/19

Sunday, 28 July 2013

We're gonna show the world that something good can work, and it can work for you...

I'm balls deep in my 5 month summer holiday courtesy of UCA Farnham. And with the new year looming, I can't help but reminisce about what position I was in this time last year. 
I was working full time for the summer at a cinema, nervously awaiting results day. As I was 90% certain I had failed my a levels, in my head, my dream of university was already dead.
Forever fierce and refusing to be a failure at life, I went out on a whim and applied for a job as cabin crew for Virgin Atlantic. I tweaked my CV a little (a lot) and bullshitted my way through their application questions. 
2 weeks later after I had forgotten all about even applying, I received an e-mail congratulating me on securing an interview. There's more to this story but, it's boring and I'm digressing anyway. MY POINT IS; having that back up plan, albeit not a guarantee, was the best idea I had at that time. It made the thought of not receiving good enough grades for Uni bearable (but I did make the grades and all was beautiful and right in the world). Even if you think you're absolutely guaranteed a place at your first choice Uni, having a plan B could be the smartest move you make. 
That aside, I'm sure all of you lovelies WILL make your grades, you've probably already raided ikea for all it's cutlery, and I bet you a fiver you've bought a lot of things you really really don't need. (Don't worry if you haven't yet bought things you don't need, your student loan will come in soon, that's when hauling shit begins). 

Here are a few things I wish I'd known before coming to Uni, plus a couple of things I did to make things at the beginning a bit easier:

-During freshers, be friendly, to EVERYONE
Uni is a time for you to come out of your shell, you're effectively leaving your old life behind, it's time for you to be exactly who you want to be without things from home holding you back. With that in mind, during freshers everyone is out to make friends. So don't disregard someone because they don't look like the sort of person you'd be friends with at home. I have a friend that I made at Uni that I can safely say is one of the most hilarious and loyal guys I will ever meet. At home, we would've rolled in different circles and never given each other the time of day, but as we were thrust into the bosom of one another (not literally) as housemates and we gave each other a chance, we turned out to be great friends. Plus being friendly is an all round nicer way to go about life really. 

- Put yourself out there, but be understanding to those who don't.
Introduce yourself to all of your housemates, they're going to be your first set of friends during freshers before your course starts. Say yes to things, even if you don't really fancy it that much. I nearly said no to exploring a town close to Uni, but that was the day I realised I was absolute soul mates with a girl I'd moved in with. Although if you do have a housemate that's saying no to things, don't give up on them, keep asking. (Until they tell you they're moving out cus you're all too noisy. Woops.)  

- Don't leave your tea towels in the kitchen 
Just, don't. 

- Worried about your relationship? You should be. 
I'm not going to lie to you, I lived with 7 other people, 5 of us began Uni in a relationships, and by January we were all a little lonelier (HAH, GAAAY). I'm aware this statistic isn't anything to go by, but living away from someone you're used to being with quite a bit is a challenge. If you're both prepared to work at it, your relationship will prevail and I'm expecting an invite to the wedding (with a plus 1, cheeky.). However, if worst comes to worst and it doesn't work out, Uni is an excellent place to be to get over it. You're living with your friends and active basically 24/7, and someone will always get drunk in a bath with you. 

-Beware of the sausage theif 
Milk, ketchup, mayo, leftovers. You bought them. But that's communal food now. Ahh, the unwritten rule of the asshole. Look you're probably gonna have food that goes missing okay? If you catch them, confront them, if it continues, report them. But only if you have SOLID EVIDENCE. For god sake when I accused my housemate of eating my yogurts he nearly cried. Just beware, and don't be a ham burglar yourself. 

-FRIENDS, UNI FRIENDS! 
Make friends with the porters, the care takers, the lunch ladies, security guards, the bar staff at the SU and the bouncers. My ass has been saved an unimaginable amount of times because of this during my stay in halls. If you don't listen to anything else I say, listen to this.

-Don't be a snob
You will get used to Sainsbury's own vodka, just like you'll think 60p value tinned peaches is the bestest dessert you've eaten in ages. You'll want to pitch it to Heston Blumenflumen. 

-Have fun!
Coming to Uni is the best thing I have ever done, leaving home was sad but you're bettering your life for you, nobody else. Even if you don't go into your preferred field after Uni, you've gained some valuable life experience there, don't let those 3/4/5/6/7 years go to waste. 

And to prove I did have a ball in my first year at Uni...

It's been a long time y'all

I promised I'd carry this on, I wasn't lying.

To 16 year old me,

I'm not going to lie to you, you're heading towards some serious shit over the next few years. You're going to have your heart broken several times in different ways, and it's not going to be easy to get over. Hell, some of it you'll never truly get over. All I can say to you is that shit happens, and there's not much you can do about it apart from carrying on with your life. Some advice I will impart though is  make use of the people around you whilst you can. If there's one thing I've learnt it's that it is easy to be independent when you've got a safety net, but remove that net and shit gets a lot more difficult. If you can nip a problem in the bud early on though you may as well. Sometimes things don't just go away with time; even if you think they will, you're not always right (though you do have a pretty good hit rate - jus' saying).
Alas, tis not all doom and gloom. You've also got some great things heading your way, just make the most of them whilst you can. And when you get an opportunity to do something, take it. No good story ever starts with "oh yeah, remember that time I stayed in...", unless you had a really fruitful wank (it happens). Also, make the most of every interaction you have. Even if it's with someone you know well or a random tramp you're rolling a cigarette for. You won't ever see some of these people again in your life, some you'll be good friends with currently but in a few years may not speak to at all. Guess in a roundabout way I'm just saying experience and enjoy life. Too much bad stuff happens in all of our lives and it can only be viewed as a learning curve, so when something good is happening/potentially happening make the most of it whilst you can.
Now get started on all that work I know you have you magnificent bastard. Also don't fuck up your A-Levels, and sort your work ethic out you dick.

Much love, me x

m/20